wtf, brain?

[eleanorjane]

So I'm actually kind of nervous about Infinity War. I missed Black Panther at the cinema (the first MCU movie that's happened with; possibly reflective of my general disengagement at present) and now I'm going to have to go into IW absent the knowledge of Black Panther, which sucks.

But you know, I'm just not ready for this? I'm not ready for some/all of my faves to die. I'm angry that the MCU PTB seem to have pivoted from where they were going with the really good years of MCU. I'm frustrated that they seem to be into making people be stupid in order to move the plot along (see: the entirety of the total clusterfuck otherwise known as Civil War).

Maybe fandom has spoiled me. With a franchise like MCU we get an instalment or two every year and in between we iterate and polish and perfect, and the examinations of character and theme are so much more nuanced, as a result, than anything the studios could put out. Maybe it's not fair to compare one studio to the finest crowdsourced storytelling that mutual brainpower and fannnish love can buy.

Just... argh. I want my big dumb fun fandom back. I miss being excited and in love instead of wary and Possibly Heartbroken.

Comments

[lilacsigil]

Honestly I'm kind of sad that if they're going to kill characters that it's going to be in a big event movie where they'll get 5 seconds of "NOOOOOOOOOO" each and not much time for reaction from their own loved ones. Still, you're right that fandom will provide!

[musesfool]

I mean, I've been preparing for Steve to die in this movie (or the next one?) for several years now, but yeah. On the one hand, I feel like I can't ask too much more, because CATWS was almost the platonic ideal of what I wanted out of a Winter Soldier movie; otoh, I'm still angry when I think about what Cap 3 could have been versus the nonsense we got in Civil War (which I still liked better than AOU, tbh).

I guess it helps that it's not my primary writing fandom anymore, but who knows?